it was a wonderful weekend. the humidity is finally gone and it was nice to be outside with the ability to breathe and walk around. i love the heat, but whoa...96 degrees? uh uhhh.
i worked on our final wedding decorations and it feels so good to have them almost finished. i feel like i have been painting/shopping/cutting/gluing for five months.
As the weekend passed, there were a few times where I found myself stressing and the stressing caused me to be anxious and the anxiousness eventually caught up with my emotions annnnd...I broke down. Again. Just once though, thankfully.
I tried to forget about everything I had to do and tried to let go of every expectation everyone has for this wedding. I started noticing that I was more focused on pleasing other people when in the end all I really want to do is marry Nick and share this love that we have had from day one. This all hit me when I happened to notice Nick writing letters to all of his groomsmen. He slowly wrote on each card and I my eyes secretly teared up when I saw him look up at me as if he knew exactly how I was feeling and his slow smile reminded me that everything is going to be okay. I realized two things in that moment. 1. Everything IS going to be okay and 2. Life is too short to spend time worrying about so many things.
Which brings me here: Life is too short...
to be negative.
to be stressed.
to be stressed.
to think that perfect always exists.
to care about everyone's opinion of you.
to be living somebody else's dream.
to not be curious.
to not let someone inspire you.
to not inspire someone.
to be at a constant war with yourself.
In an intellectual sense, we all know that life is short. But how many of us actually live our day to day lives like we’re really going to die one day? I was reminded this weekend that life is too short for many many things and whether we spend time fighting each day or loving them like crazy, hours are going to pass no matter what. This week is going to fly for me and rather than spending minute after minute stressing about each and every task and responsibility, I should have gratitude towards every heart, every congratulations, and each moment that occurs in the next 72 hours because come Friday I'll be happy no matter what. I hope you can set aside stress this week and live life to the fullest!
I'm going to go buy a bottle of wine now. Wine is happy and happy is meeee!!